Love and Death, You and Me
If I had died when I was 5 years old
Would you have questioned
While you were lonely on the playground
Why I had chosen to play with angels over you?
If at 10 I had disappeared
Would you have cried
Thinking cooties had killed me
When you gave me a chaste kiss on a dare?
If I had lived to only be 15
Would you have hated me
For running to a place
Where you couldn’t follow?
If I was gone by the age of 20
Would you have become depressed
Because I left you to explore adulthood alone
When I couldn’t handle the pressure?
If at 25 I took my last breath
Would you have kept the ring
That you had planned to give me, the girl
Who you wanted to marry?
If I only reached 30 when I died
Would you have looked our children
In the eyes and told them
Why their mother was never coming home?
If I only lived to the age of 40
Would you have tried to move on
Went out on dates and always wondered
Why you compared those women to me?
If I was gone at 50 years old
Would you have forgotten to eat
Because you were busy at work
Where you tried to take control of your life again?
If at 60 I passed away
Would you have drank away the pain
Even though that was
Why you couldn’t see our grandchildren?
If I was with you until I became 80
Would you have started to embrace
The idea of dying too, that
When you died we would be together once more?
If at the old age of 100 I left forever
Would you have been happy
Knowing we had lived long, happy lives
While the world changed around us?
If I never die
Would you question
While you are sitting alone in the heavens
Why I have chosen to live forever without you?
Bullets for breakfast
Sloshing around in a bowl of blood
Lacerations at lunch
Stinging spots leaving scars
Tablets during tea
Swallowed dry by the bottle
Skipping this supper
Saving space for the best part
Death served for dessert
Served with a side of suicide
By LAUREN MCDANIELS / Staff Writer
Found in the 2015 Print Edition